It’s been a long journey of ups and downs, feeling lost and losing people I loved. The past couple of years have been my most trying times learning how to live with a gaping whole in my heart and soul and trying to find my way out of my grief. I’ve been lucky enough to have many beautiful angels that give me signs letting me know I’m on the right path, just like they did in life always fanning the flame within me when it was close to burning out. I’ve had to learn how to keep it going for myself now and I’ll admit I’ve been the most lost I’ve ever been, until recently and I’ve found that faint pulse within me and I’m finding that appetite for my life again as well. All I can do is hope and put out into the world my vision of happiness and a journey that my loved one would be proud of. Remember that “ruin is a gift, ruin is the road to transformation” I know what the bottom feels like and now I have the fire to get out of the darkness.